Day Goes On

Stuck in the wilderness of my own world
Trapped & stuck, wound up in a ball all hurled
An explosive mind, damaged & full of scars
A sudden burst and it shot up into the stars
Lost my way, lost my train of thought
Alone at earth, myself was whom i fought
Silence, a non-audible sense of being
So calm & so mellow, yet such a hollow feeling
My eyes opened, & vision was cleared
Just a mindful mirage, in the distance you reappeared.

Nightmares or Reality?

Awake in my sleep, my visions were not pretty,
My fault was the purpose, i was left with only pity.
Kept feeling the pain, but thought only to refrain,
Maintaining my composure, evil thoughts were slain.
A Path of light came forth visibly, flashing..
Better days in sight, reminiscing moments passing
A realization within myself, maybe morality
Asleep in my nightmares, or was it reality ?

Never Stay Put

Sitting idle trying to figure out what the next stage is,
To my suprize, i wasn't alone, amongst other blank faces.
Staying courageous, keeping my mind sharp turning pages,
Silence breaking from beneath, its time for me to say this.
Rages and outbursts was not where my place is,
Chosen to be out of the box, no more being caged in.

That New New

Some things are best left unspoken
Now in a mess picking up the pieces
A rush of thoughts, feeling so broken
Regather and pace yourself, unfold all creases
Break out of the hole, go strong and..
Start fresh, after all the bad ceases.

White Canvas

Spare a thought, for the one that cares
No point now dwelling, on times once shared
Illustrating myself on a blank piece of paper
I attempt to draw but i just can't seem to shape her
Creating space for something better and greater
Erasing her sooner rather than later
Strokes of assurance, colours so spontaneous
An Art of me , and a clearance of someone extraneous.

For that anonymous commenter and my only commenter, you have talent hit me up on my msn and send me some of your stuff eager to read :)

A Place Made To Be Yours

Moments of treasure are now set aside to rest..
Buried deep, into a gold-filled chest..
Swiped my slate positively blank..
No-one better than myself to thank..
A step made now, is a step less later..
A sorrow to kill & peace to cater..
Day and night, later on will feel so right..
Calm as ever, like stepping into a heaven so bright .

Feel, Hear .

Hands shivering, feeling colder than the breeze which swept through the leave-less trees,
Yet pondering, searching & wondering about everything my eyes see;

Ears twitch to the drops of rain tip tapping on my ceiling,
Heart deepens and sinks any emotion sending me into confused feelings;

Learn to step out of the cold, cover yourself with words or warmth,
A sense of moral amongst you should be swarmed, leaving aside all possibility to be harmed.. !

We observe, we feel, we hear , and in the end your the most important __as simple as that .

Hope Is Your Friend

Walk through your path with a clear conscious,

Nobody else wants this, more than the way you want this;

Dont choke your hope but give it good company,

So at times think ' imma be patient till it comes to me';

I'll wait til fate comes back and runs to me,

Sitting and resting my dome of wonders and visions to be;

Will it happen, wil they prosper into normality,

Or keep being a tease into the world of undesirable reality;

Why face such..?

A flourish of new beginnings always seems to get you awake from your somnolent present,

Yet down the road, it all comes sprawling , comparing it to what "was";
A mind wandering of confused needs and desires, some seem close yet so out of reach,
Washing away memories open unknown paths & contemplation creates a head full of wrath;
Rushing two steps ahead moves you back further than you expect,
Moving too fast forces a lesson that..

PATIENCE TRULY IS A VIRTUE !

It's Amazing, Yeh It's All That

So Many Questions In My Head

Thunder strikes & triggers a feeling somewhere deep inside,
Confining unresolved thoughts into the midst of happenings;

Stuck on a page, wondering whether to keep reading or to skip a chapter,
Words so strong i felt weak as i kept reading and was over-powered;

Made an attempt to freeze the moment and frame it,
A sense so strong that it came longing from what was missing and saved it;

Waves of hope came crashing, but i was left safe on the shore,
Reassuring myself that this is a next step rather than an end .

To Just..

My mind full of blurs as the image of you fades
..into lonesome pages of history which were once wholesome days;

Days pass by, time flies, think of it as abnormal normality?
..Every sleep in the night, every blink of your sight,
think of it as everyday formality;

The sound of silence urges the rush of thoughts into one
confined space
..Limitations which once were have now turned out to be
forever in your chase...

TO JUST LIVE!:)

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These are awesome kicks..
plain and fresh !

Invisible or Impenetrable?

I always wondered what it was like to be living in a world where no-one can see you
but still lived like everyone else. But then my mind started thinking logically and
quite confidently confirmed that it would be quite the depressing state of being.
Isolation, loneliness and other synonyms of these lovely words which have
found itself in the midst of my imagination, would most kindly describe the very thought
which i have pointlessly brought up. But this is where you are wrong! =D
It's all not so pointless, although to an extent. Yes being invisible will be quite awesome
and remarkable, but there are downsides like i have mentioned above.

On the other hand, being impenetrable is so much better on many levels. Being impenetrably able to withstand any force in a sense of physical and psychological time, is what i would rather be wanting to do or have the ability to. Looking into reality, invisibility is as rare as Big Foot, but impenetrability would be utmost of somewhat "powers".

Everyday we go through times where we wish we were invisible, but when someone speaks of you in a manner so disturbing, yeah they might not be able to see you, but your GOING TO BE A TOTAL wreck, the next minute, because what they said found itself to cause a stir to the way you feel . On the other hand, using this same situation, but having the "powers" of impenetrability can ensure verbal slurs, psychologically vicious taunts and so on to seep through and past you without creating its territory inside of you :)..
To answer the physical part to this..well..only thing that comes to mind is..GROW muscles and man up lol (sorry could not think of what to write for that)

*this post is again made relevant to certain situations ive come across and sharing it releases stress*

Life's Too Precious To Waste

Past
Said you will, but don't say you have,
Reminiscing and regretting seemed similar;
Time healed my unclear state of mind,
As the clock tick tocked my slate became positive blank;
Present
Self righteousness is used as a shelter from wrong doings,
Goodness strives through the mind but some are left as exceptions;
Initiative is lacking of and the clock is ticking off,
Decisions bunched up and mind full of hesitations;
Future
An objective of succession seemed near,
Approach was made easier as the obstacle was no longer fear;
"Sky high and no looking down" is what pushes him over the line,
Staying simple in the mind confirms everything will be fine;

Life's Too Precious To Waste

His life flashed before him through the words of someone so dear, But he listened and listened well, as the path to undertake became clear; An intuitive insight into reality was made aware of and planning was only the start, Praying and pleading for the right ways, it was real this time as every thought of life resulted in a beating heart;Contemplation was no longer the pass time as initiative has taken over and crushed it into pieces and optimism prevailed once again.

"My poetry is deep, i never fell"- NAS


..just writing about what i feel and also on behalf of a best friend..
..its what we feel..and i decided this is how i should sum it up!..
p.s the sunset is used because i had no other picture i can use for
this certain post above. p.p.s PURPLE IS THE BOMB!

The Fray- Heartless Cover

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This track is pretty much ILL as hell!
PEEP it ! don't SLEEP on it !

Trying to Chase the Cool? i Think So!

"A Hole you make is a hole you will have to drive through"- whatever you do or say you will have to live with it as you actions are the only things which back up what you say and saying things which arent quite true..then proving your talk will make it harder for you to walk the walk and in the end, forcing you to fall into the hole you made yourself!"

It's a new place, new faces, and only thing to do is to make acquaintances so that the feeling of
an "outkast"..."loneliness" and "emptyness"can be avoided. The first few meets and greets with those unknown and new can be a determination of what the next meets and greets will result in- First Impression? Quite Right!

This first impression is best achieved and MAINTAINED i repeat MAINTAINED when a character upholds themselve's as themselves and not through the ways of deception and basic element of life- LIES! Yes, most won't be suprised by this element which is practised by many and also by someone who is somewhat a friend..mate..brother..whatever they might think..but i dont think so!

WHY? well its simple, being pushed away, avoided, ignored, put down and repeatedly being hypocritically criticised, just to get that little bit of fresh attention, which they are not used to but
like and therefore resulted in me saying "repeateadly" ...

Why this happens....is totally un-explainable..never have i experienced someone so eager to
feast their time on "attention seeking"..through lies, "ass-kissing"(had no better way to say that haha) and like LUPE said which is also what the only thing i had to say was..

QUIT CHASING THE COOOL! (cool in the negative of senses)

Ok lets slightly divert this to the topicof loyalty..something this person clearly lacks and knows that they do..but does not want to do anything about it. Im actually sort of happy that they dont
care about how much they care as it just gives me a confirmation of one less person i can add to my christmas card list:) ..hypothetically speaking though haha

WHY THIS BOTHERS ME?..[years of friendship, TIMES, talks, shared experiences]..
To the person this can mean as much as a nutshell... .IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE!

And c'mon if you LOVE someone..why deny it?
its totally stupid..!
ok i might sound corney for the next couple of lines..
but isnt it love when you admit that you love someone!
i shall accept that addmittance was done..but also denial
was taking place(more than once) ..why?..again!..to gain attraction from the attractive opposite sex..only to expand the limitation of boundaries between..on a desirable physical level.

QUIET THE SITE ISN'T IT!

Communication of this between myself and the "rebel" of normality is narrowing as time ticks..
all i have to say is..karma always prevails and dont lie to fit in..you'll either be accepted or
realise that it isnt for you!:)

"AN OBSCENE OBSESSION for the "coolest" "


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OH MY GOD!

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Purple Kickz!

Weird fetish for purple..and also for kicks..and if you put them together you basically get a combo which is orgasmically beautifull...also how i wanted to describe these shoes..orgasmically beautiful..simple and just the way its supposed to be.